A Nervous but Heartfelt Proposal: My Journey and Her Reaction

Proposing to my crush has always been a daunting task. Nerves have been my constant companion, making my palms sweat and my heart race with each passing second. Yet, this time, I felt the need to break my long-standing tradition of keeping my feelings to myself. Today, I share my journey and the response she gave, in the hope that my experience might offer some guidance to those facing similar challenges.

The Build-up

For days leading up to the proposal, I kept thinking about what I should say. I wanted my words to do justice to my feelings, but the more I thought about it, the more nervous I became. Just like a badly hydrated person feeling more tense, my anxiety levels were off the charts. I had never done something like this before, and the thought of possible rejection made everything seem worse.

I had written the proposal paragraph I shared in the original text, expressing my feelings several times before, but I never had the courage to send it. I feared that knowing the answer in advance would lead to greater pain if she rejected me. However, this time, I decided to take the leap, even if it meant bearing the pain of rejection.

The Proposal

I decided to surprise her with the proposal on a significant date, 14th February, hoping it would make the moment even more special. However, if the opportunity didn't arise, I would propose now. I didn't want her to feel pressured for an answer, so I assured her that I would give her a month to think about it.

I wrote a heartfelt letter:

To my favorite person.
Subject: Proposal

It's quite a long one.

Although today is not 14th February, maybe the right moment never came. But it's time to give a definite answer, whether yes or no.

And after all this time of pouring my heart out, you will only get a month to reconsider….
Sure, these are just my words, but they are true.

We have been together for two years now, and you know everything about me.
I can only see myself in your eyes, and I feel like the universe conspires to bring us together.

You are a moment of calm in my life, like a star that turns my universe whole. You have found solutions to all my mathematical problems, provided oxygen to my chemistry puzzles, and balanced my biology with your heart.

I understand that true happiness is found in just a glimpse of you, and you are beyond cute. When you smile, you become even more adorable. Your eyes are the prettiest I’ve ever seen. I have never felt like this before, and it’s as if my entire existence revolves around you.

Time and love have changed your place in my heart, but you still remain my first and only priority. Every time I see you, my heart beats a little faster.

So, tell me, can you give me a chance to love you as I want to? You are the one, and not anyone else. My wish is that you give me a hope for a second chance, or at least for a permanent spot in your heart. You understand, right?

Love you, okay, I won't reveal more.
Say NO if you want to, but at least I tried!

The Reaction

After sending the proposal, I waited with bated breath. The suspense was killing me, but I couldn't bring myself to check my inbox. Finally, I mustered the courage to open my email, and that’s when I saw her response.

With a mix of emotion, she decided to reply: 'I love you okay, I won't reveal. Bol NO ya fir NO! Thori bhi positive expectations nahi hai [I love you okay, I won't reveal. Say NO if you want to, but at least I tried!].'

It was a mixture of rejection and hoping for a positive response. It was sincere, heartbreaking, and true.

Reflection and Moving On

It has been a rollercoaster, from nervousness to heartbreak, and then back to hope. While the result was not what I had hoped for, she admitted that she had never been so honest in her response. For me, it was a lesson on the importance of expressing feelings and taking the risk of a rejection, in the hope that one day I might be the one to receive a positive response.

Keywords: proposal, crush, romantic proposal