The Humiliating Daycare Incident That Led to My AB/DL Journey

Back in the year 2000, when I was only five years old, I was already potty trained. However, I still wore pull-ups at night, and sometimes I would dribble during the day. My experience at an after-kindergarten daycare changed me forever, leading to a journey of self-acceptance that I never expected.

The Day My Life Changed

One day, I needed to use the restroom, but an adult was using it for a long time. By the time she was done, my bladder was on the brink of collapse. I started peeing my pants, and despite my efforts to stop the flow, it was too late.

When she finally finished, the attendant walked out of the restroom, leaving the door open. I tried to hide my embarrassment, but it was too late. She looked down at me, saw my wet pants, and picked me up to take me to a changing table. I expected her to help me into dry clothes, but instead, she put me in a diaper.

The Embarrassing Diaper Incident

I immediately panicked, yelling and trying to get off the table. The attendant quickly held me down and called her coworkers for assistance. Two adults came in and held me down, while the attendant taped me up. The sensation of shame was overwhelming, and the smell of the diaper was even more distressing.

After they were done, instead of giving me fresh pants, they put on my shoes. The other kids saw me in a diaper and stared at me in shock, laughing and making fun of me. They treated me like a toddler, and I couldn't play with them; a big boy even told me that certain toys were only for 'big kids,' which made me feel even more humiliated.

The Impact on My Self-Esteem

This incident left a profound impact on me. I became more sensitive about my body image and started to feel like a child. My mother tried to help me by providing spare overalls to help hide the diaper, but it was a temporary solution. Over time, this incident set the stage for my journey as an AB/DL.

Nostalgia for Diapers

I began to yearn for the days when I could wear diapers without judgment. As I grew older, the desire to wear them became a part of my identity. It wasn't until my early teens, the late 2000s, that I had the chance to wear diapers again. I snuck into a neighbor's garage during a party and grabbed some infantile diapers. Although I was too big for those, it gave me a moment of relief.

In 2015, when I turned 18, I finally got my first adult diaper. I ordered them off Amazon, which marked a significant turning point in my journey. My longing for diapers had grown, and I finally found a way to satisfy that desire without feeling ashamed.

This experience taught me the importance of self-acceptance and the journey of finding what makes you feel comfortable in your skin. It's a reminder that sometimes, our past experiences can shape our future in unexpected ways.